And the Emotions be A'Rollin'...

[amarie24]

I am so fucking angry today, Jesus Christ almighty on a cucumber…

Just so many bad memories coming up from so many angles and I can’t squash them down quickly enough. Anger at my fuckass nursing program, anger at classmates who I thought were my friends, anger at my mother, anger at the teacher that wouldn’t teach and victim blamed me so brazenly, anger at my mother holy fucking shit history is flaring up. I’ve literally been tearing up, yelling the shit I want to yell at all of these people, and otherwise being too much on a hot wire to even cuddle my cat or try to write.

I guess it’s part of the grief process, but I hate this tight, hot feeling in my chest-I grew up with that shit and I know I’ll always know this feeling.

I’m just so, so angry.

I’m gonna go see the new Dragon Ball Super: Broly movie and the Bumblebee movie tomorrow. Hopefully it’ll help me calm down…

Comments

[lonespark]

oh no I'm sorry

It's definitely a normal healthy part of the grieving process, but it sucks sooooo bad!!!

I hope you have some things to do to process it? I read a book called Unfuck Your Brain that was helpful with some stuff like that.

*offers cyber hugs or smiles or calming music or fic or whatever it is that give you most good feelings*

[amarie24]

Oh yes, I've got some help! Like I said, tomorrow Imma take an Uber to get me out the house and see some movies! And I'm also due to see my therapist next Tuesday, in the morning.

Unfuck Your Brain, you say? Ohhh, I've heard of that book before-I think I'll look into it, so thank you!

I've also taken a nap earlier this afternoon, so that helped mellow me out quite a bit.

-hugs you back and enjoys the calming music and reading fic- Thank you, darling friend. Thank you, thank you!!!