And the Emotions be A'Rollin'...

I am so fucking angry today, Jesus Christ almighty on a cucumber…

Just so many bad memories coming up from so many angles and I can’t squash them down quickly enough. Anger at my fuckass nursing program, anger at classmates who I thought were my friends, anger at my mother, anger at the teacher that wouldn’t teach and victim blamed me so brazenly, anger at my mother holy fucking shit history is flaring up. I’ve literally been tearing up, yelling the shit I want to yell at all of these people, and otherwise being too much on a hot wire to even cuddle my cat or try to write.

I guess it’s part of the grief process, but I hate this tight, hot feeling in my chest-I grew up with that shit and I know I’ll always know this feeling.

I’m just so, so angry.

I’m gonna go see the new Dragon Ball Super: Broly movie and the Bumblebee movie tomorrow. Hopefully it’ll help me calm down…