Umm...

[amarie24]

Ya'll know that feeling when for a long, long time, you had so much shit to do? Shit that had deadlines and a whole host of other things outta your control? And it felt like time wasn't yours because you were just so busy, busy, busy, busy all the time?

And as a result, you always more or less had your day's activities planned down to the hour, including how many hours of sleep you'd get?

But then...that time is over for the moment. Now time is all yours and you thought you'd jump on the ball doing whatever you need and want to do on your own time. But...

Instead, you're kinda [happily] flailing because you kinda forgot what it's like for your day to be yours? So you're doing little things here and there, just, like...enjoying time slowing down for the moment. And you're also kinda sorta numb because you almost thought this would never come to pass.

Just...flailing around, like a happy bird.

Ya'll know that feeling?


--Amarie

Comments

[alexseanchai]

...don't read today's news till the happy has worn off on its own

[amarie24]

Aww, naw, Alex. I've been scrolling through my Tumblr dash as things are updated-I know what's going on. That's part of the "numb" aspect of me right now, y'know?

Very, very numb. : /

[alexseanchai]

Gotcha.

[amarie24]

And also, please always remember that if you need to talk about this or anything else at all that my inbox is open for you! ^ ^

[alexseanchai]

I appreciate that.

I was just thinking, I am glad you're happy, I value your happiness, I want to prolong that state of being the only way I know how right now... :P

[amarie24]

...I'd like you to know that I read this over and over again with smiling, happy tears in my eyes. I...I just...I wish the exact same for you and I just had no idea that you value me so much in turn.

Thank you. Thank you so, so very, very much.

Thank you.

[pebblerocker]

Oh, always. The emergency situation passes and I think about how I'll get onto all the things I couldn't do while I was so busy, and instead I find myself just... sitting and reading. Or wandering around the house realising I don't have to go anywhere, but not able to remember how to notice what I really want to do.

I had a mid-week day off this week, after a very busy month, and I just could not get my nose out of a book. I had a nice seat on the couch by the window with autumn sun coming in, and Monty came to snuggle up on my lap and purr to me. I would highly recommend this course of action (inaction!), perhaps in a nice shady spot if that's more suited to your weather. After that I played computer games half the afternoon!

[amarie24]

This. This. This. This. THIS.

Y'know, I took your advice here just last night! I tried to write something, but...my brain was like, "Nu-uh. Not just yet; gimme a while to recover from the turbo hell you put me through. Go play Sims."

And alas, that's just what I did with my wittle white boy Dante curled up on the bed right next to my computer chair.

(And actually, yes, I love to sit in the sun while reading a book, watching a movie, etc. Thankies much, friend!)

[silveradept]

Having time off is usually used to just decompress from everything and do small fun things. I need dedicated time if before I start really doing things that take time and effort.

[amarie24]

This. This, indeed.